Tuesday, November 07, 2006

i hope, i hope i hope......

some days are better than others, sometimes we feel like everything is "undercontrol." Who's control do we have it under though, this is something that i struggle with everyday. Giving God the control of my plans. Things have changed a bit for me in the last few months. I had hoped to be a Bible Translator, work with Wycliffe Bible Translators, go to a far away place and meet and live with people not of my same language, learn their language and Lord willing, translate the Bible into their native language. I had hopes of going to Moody Bible Institute in Chicago, IL. I wanted to study linguistics and LOVE every minuet of it all. Something i found in all of this are these two words... I WANT.. I WANT. Wow, how incredibly blind i was to this. the entire time i was planning this great and wonderful future God already had one in mind for me and, rightly so, he was probably laughing at my means of planning my future. Sure, i had good intentions, i wanted to give the Word of God to those who don't have it. I wanted to be a servent to Christ's work and continue to reach people with the bible in their own language. These are all great things however, i wasn't allowing God's plans to mingle with mine. I can hope and plan and wish all i want but if i'm not allowing God to take my desires and hopes and make them what He wants them to be then i'm doing nothing but amlessly planning. God has given me longings and desires for my life but it's not my job to piece them together to come up with a good future for myself, God's got it all underHIScontrol.
May i remember this as i continue on my path of education and doing the work that He gives me each day, not just reving up for the work that is to come.

I leave you with this....
Jeremiah 29:11 (New Life Version)

11 For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord, 'plans for well-being and not for trouble, to give you a future and a hope.


  1. Hey girl,
    I wanted to tell you again that you did an amazing job at church today. God has truely blessed you with a beautiful voice to share with others and I'm so proud of you getting up on that stage by yourself (with Gideon of couse) and praising God. I'm so very proud of you. Thank you for giving me goose bumps lol. I love you and miss you very much. Life is crazy and I can't wait to be able to just sit and talk with you. Take Care my dear dear friend. Have a wonderful week and good luck this friday with your teaching thing.

  2. Anonymous12:29 AM

    ah, christina,
    there you go again inspiring me to be better, to breath deeper to keep my will alligned with his will, to go deeper. you truly are an amazing woman.
    praying for you still